I cannot resist saying one thing today. It's political in a way, but I am not trying to persuade anyone of anything in terms of beliefs. I need to vent my frustration. Now that this long investigation thing has ended, Couldn't "we", and especially the media, shut the heck up about it and find something else to talk about? As for me, I would very much like to heal this divided country. Move on, stop fighting with each other and let us be better than all this infighting. I feel like I am watching kindergartners on a playground who can't get along and I am so tired of it. NH is the best place in the world to live, I love my state, but now that the 2020 "season" is beginning, I shudder to think that our first in the nation primary state won't have time to heal it's wounds. They'll all be here, dragging us through the mud until our primary, it's all begun already. The nasty accusations and criticisms are like wounds from this 25 million dollar investigation. To top if off, it's like the results are not important, they are still screaming at each other. We may begin to heal after this hellish investigation had people at each other's throats, only to be ripped open to bleed profusely by the parade of candidates we shall "get to know" personally over the next few months. Ugh. I seriously wish for one news station to have simply news, not politics, a safe haven. Even if they had one hour a day dedicated to this purpose for the politically traumatized folks to be able to find out what is happening without being dragged through all that mud. Life could be so much happier. I do know where my remote is and where, also, the mute button is, at least. That is a life saver. I think I have political PTSD, I swear. Enough already!

So, I'm working at the Weight Watcher thing but little things like people's birthdays seem to get in the way when it comes to consistency. Stay the course, that is the key. If the horse throws you, get right back on again and move on. I'm kind of unhappy with WW later as their new program is driving me nuts. I liked the program they had 2 or 3 years ago better and I wish I had the option, with them, to go back to it. It worked for me. Yet, their phone app is the current plan and there is no way to go back to it. Certain foods are "free" foods and I am so sick of them. Eggs, chicken breast, beans, repeat, boring me to death may I say. Fruits and veggies are free and I am very glad about that, but those other foods seem to take over when you want to save up your points for dinners and eating out and stuff like that. So tired of it. So, I have been giving thought to trying out some other programs than WW as it is so confining. One does not always need a program to lose weight and keep it off, but I am one that needs structure and something to follow and it's been good for me. I did lose 35 pounds, but it is now more like 25 pounds and I'm trying so hard to hold the line and go back towards the 35 again, but boy is it ever hard. Hopefully some spring weather and getting outdoors will help. I sure wish that WW had more meetings up around this area I live in. I even gave thought to starting a group locally for people who want to meet and talk about their efforts, share successes and ideas and weigh in regularly. Having another person weigh you weekly was truly part of my success, I think. I sure wish there was a convenient day and time around here for a WW meeting. Naturally, the day there is a meeting is also the day for quilting at the church, I choose that. I also know, deep down, that no one buy me holds the silverware and is responsible for what I eat. So, with that counting as a stern lecture to myself, I vow to be a good girl today.