Why do I come here when I am sad? I guess it is because I just don't want to be making everyone else miserable with my whining and to write here makes me get it out of my system. I've been sad this week. Yet another Diverticulitis attack has seared me with pain. I've been so upset. I went through surgery and here I am with this again. No nuts No seeds No popcorn (on no, please not that again.....) No gluten (yup, you have done this time and time again, when will you learn?) I'm mourning again for the loss of these foods. I want my mom. Yesterday I found myself crying as I wanted her so badly. I'm going to be 62 years old tomorrow and yet I feel like a 14 year old who wants mom to fix it all for me. My own daughter is sad and needs me and I need to square my shoulders and so what others call "adulting" and it sucks as I'm the one who feels like she needs to be mothered right now. So, there you go. Suck it up. Be the grown up.